After being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis on Monday, I have remained in shock until late last night. I was reading a book, while unable to sleep, titled 'Faulty Wiring'.... it all finally clicked. I broke down. I began crying my eyes out realizing that no matter what, I am stuck with this horrible disease. There is no cure. And I blamed myself... trying to figure out what I have done in my life so horrible to deserve this.
I looked up and down the internet for inspiration. I spoke to friends. And I found nothing to assist how I felt. Everything I came across was religion based. I have been officially an atheist for 11 years, so I am feeling super alone and incredibly depressed. I am trying to take it one day at a time, but it feels so tough right now...
I'm Amber. 26 yrs old. I have two girls (4 and 7) who are a handful, but keep me on my feet. I haven't worked in over a year due to severe back pain, which as still gone "unknown" according to my doctors. I was diagnosed with MS on 06/29/15. I also have been diagnosed with mild scoliosis, beginning of disc degeneration, a "rare" L6 vertebrae, hypothyroidism, diabetes inspidius, IgG4, fibromyalgia, & hypermobility. You can find me on Instagram: Spoonie.Amber
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