I sit here, alone, in the silence of my apartment, everyone is asleep- even the cats. Every single night, I sit awake, fighting for my mind to shut off. Tonight, I am fighting with depression. I just want to know what's wrong with me. I want to feel normal again. I want answers. I feel like hell for allowing my fiancee to be the sole provider for our family. For barely scrapping by. I wish I could go back to work, but my body simply won't allow it... and I am unable to file for disability assistance until I know whats wrong. Life seriously sucks sometimes.....
But I gotta keep keeping on, and I can't let myself forget that it can't rain forever.
I have insomnia, I have a prescription for sleeping pills, but I refuse to take them because I am left feeling like a zombie for days at a time.
I know I can pull through the depression, but I would give anything for answers...
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